I am a failure

I don't know if anyone will see and I have no where else to talk about my thoughts or what to say what I'm gonna say. So I'm gonna put it here. 

Hi I'm 17 and I'm in my sophomore year of high school and I haven't went to School in over couple months. The reason is I have have migraines and it awful at times where I feel like I'm gonna die. I do see a doctor, a neurologist and none alcoholic cirrhosis of the liver and i would have in the side of my stomach but it has gotten a little better but the migraines is the most part. I cant stand bright light loud noise certain type of lighting light lEDs light like the bule ones. They have to be on red or if not I get a headache. I just feel like a failure because I haven't done any of my work it's not I don't want to it's that I can't because I have trouble with. I know I'm not like other people, I can't do the math I take but I see my classmates around me doing having little problems with and being able to doing. Then there's me who doesn't understand one bit and I try because in do sometimes get it right and I'm proud but that only happens when we do it as a class, once we do it on our own I can't because I don't know how to do it (if that makes sense) all my other class I'm failing because I don't understand the work only class I can do is photoshop and art but I can't do that while I'm at home. Photoshop doesn't work on the iPad they gave us (they gave us iPad when covid started) and art I can't either because the teacher doesn't have access to Schoology. It's just a complete mess. But I got a letter today with all the days I missed and my grandfather ask Mr if I'm dropping out. I don't wan't to drop out. I Want to get an education and get out of the God awful state I live in. Because I want to become an artist but my grandfather qsk me if there's anything I could take to become a nurse or a secretary but I don't want do those things and I still have time to work on my art style and become better. But where I live you don't get those opportunities unless you a A honor roll and all that fancy stuff, because I'm not even before I stop going to school. I just need help too. With my mental health it's not good either but I'm afraid to speak. So if you read this thank you for you're time ❤ have a good/night.- Cokie