Feelings and thoughts

this is an old comment i posted on one of those youtube checkpoint videos back on march, today im just not feeling my best, im starting to realize that every time i feel like im starting to make actual progress i just suddenly go back to where i start.

March 11 2023 09:10am I have struggle with relationships of any kind since i was a child, forming and keeping them, after so many years i finally found someone that doesn't make me feel like im "too much" and i finally feel like im actually conecting with people, but i just start my last year on highschool and at the start of the next year i'll have to move to another city for college, no family, no friends, not even online friends because i can't even make any, and i have spend so much time trying to figure out what is wrong with me, because i know that the other ones aren't the problem, and i look at people that look like me or have similar interests and they all have friends, and it got to the point where i started to realize that its not because of the way i look, its not because of the way i act, the things i like, how i talk, how i move, how i express my feeling, but its because its me, and no mater how much i try to twist, and change my shape, and take of pieces of me i just don't fit in the puzzle.