me, as a start.

ill be honest.

ive got too much love to give, idk if its the place to vent but I kinda wanna try<3

so I've been struggling with some mental health issues, my dad ofc left a year ago and I'm with my mom! i love her very much and my sibling too...

but

no matter what I do I'm at fault, I get blamed for everything but that's not it, she always screams at me and yells at me and tells me that I never d stuff right, and no matter how much I try to explain to her that in the process of healing my mental health bc of my father she always says that she suffered more than me and she's fine when in reality she isn't.

I'm trying to be kind and understanding but I can't stop crying in frustrating, she yells so much that when someone yells at me (especially in public places like class) I get an instant panic attack and no matter how much I try to explain it to my friend they constantly yell at me so fucking loud I can't stop pathetically pretend I go to the bathroom and try to muffle my tears so make it seem like I'm drinking water.

it's so annoying to deal with it and I can't stop no matter how much I try.

i love my mom, we have our lovely moments but I can't help but think of running away.