dont do this to me

why did u look at me with that look the first time u saw me?? what did u see when u look at me? did i look like another girl or did u already plan all the things u wanted to do to me that u did? i would ask u this but i know u wouldn't tell me. 

youre the first guy to ever make me feel what it felt like to be love. u showed me how love supposed to be. u cared about me the most and im sorry that when u met me i wasnt in the right place in mind. when i cried in ur arms u make me feel like what i was dealing with matter and that i shouldn't feel sorry for crying. but why? why did u turn out to be like the rest?? was it all a lie? when did u got tired of me? how didnt i noticed it sooner? where did it went wrong?? 

i dont think i can ever love someone again after you because i dont wanna love anyone the way i loved u. u didnt deserve the disrespect. i wanted  to put u first on top of everything and everyone but not realizing thats what bringing u down because u didnt like that. u thought i was desparate and u got tired. 

i always thought our feelings were mutual but when i read our texts why was i the only one giving. was i the only one delusional and in love with u? why did it take me so long to realize this.