i hate you

if u dont want me no more then tell me dont make me look like a fool still trying to get you. tell me u dont want me and dont text me anymore after cuz then i'll seriously cut ties with u and u'll no longer have anything to do with me. at least not as stranger or a "friend". i mean its easy and prolly dont mean anything to u since ure the one who left in the first place. its easy for u if i were to cut ties cuz u never even sees me as a person mayb thats y u can just leave and dont even think about me anymore. so screw u i dont need u either if u dont need me. u can just delete my number and we can go back to how it has always been, strangers to each other. u didnt want anything to do with me. i meant nothing to you. thats y it was easier for u to cut ties with me. i hate how easy it was for u to leave and act like i dont exist. i hate how u never once cared about me. i hate how u can use ur words to manipulate me into thinking that u still care. most of all i hate how i still care about u despite all the shitty things uve done. seriously screw u for fucking up my life, for making me feel worthless, for making me feel like im not enough, for making me question my whole existence, for making me thinking that everyone will leave me just like u did. i hate u for making me go thru all the things i have to go thru. u knew the mental state i was in and u introduced me to drugs and took advantage of me. after i no longer mean anything to u, u left me as if i was just another girl or mayb thats what i had always been in ur eyes. i hate u because i threw away my morality and self respect for u. i hate that i have to go thru all that because of u and that u never once sorry about it. fuck u for making me believe that u still care.