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sometimes i sits and think. i think about the past eventho it wont change anything i still think and sometimes i cry. i’d like to think how would i have turned out if i had stayed in school. i think of the possibilities of me turning into the person i’ve always wanted to be when i was younger. 

i’d think what i could’ve done differently when i just started taking care of myself. what i could’ve change in the past. i still am blaming myself after what happened on my birthday. how would i turned out if i didnt have to go through what i did. i think how my life would turned out if i have only think better for myself. if i didnt meet “him” would it have changed anything?

thinking made me realise that i would never experience the same thing again. i know that i cant turn back time but sometimes i still put myself in that position to sit and think how my life would’ve turned out if only i had a guidance, someone to at least tell me what to do in times of troubles. 

realising i was ripped away from my childhood was hard for me to accept maybe thats y sometimes i feel like a child stuck in an adult body.