I'm not entirely sure where to to put this. . .

I am lost majikally. Nothing clicks. I would try meditation but I don't even know when to meditate on. I don't know where to start. No dieties jump out at me. No one sect or schooling or what have you call to me. Im watching everyone around me settle into their majiks but me? I don't even dream, my brain just turns off and suddenly my alarms are going off in the morning. 

I don't know.