4REAL (obsposting)

RICHEY EDWARDS SHRINE HAHAA dsgjejsueruksr i like him. hes edgy ik but i relate to him sm idk why. aaaaaa hdhhkg srry idk how to pick "good" images :((

Why i relate to him is quite questionable so i might have to add a major warning.

tw mentions of self-harm/self-mutilation

Around the same time i started breaking apart from my ex-fp, i found out abt Richey from, once again, a pin on pinterest. I've seen the same image multiple times but i never bothered learning abt him. Until obviously, Richey started gaining my attention. Missing? In a band? The 4real incident? That's a lot of questions. 

When my fp eventually broke up with me, I was devastated and depressed. I was going insane, i didnt know what to do. I've always thought abt harming myself and going missing, way before ive heard of Richey. To cope, i eventually started harming myself. One of the first scars were a "4REAL", inspired by Richey ofc. I was lonely so i needed an obsession at the time, Richey was the only thing i clung to. This was not good obviously. Its situations like these that get parents all worked up abt the media and its influences on kids. I just thought that if i didnt do it, no one would believe me. Whenever someone asks me abt my scars, a tiny voice would always tell me to blame it on Richey, abandonment and depression lol.

Argh, a lot went into my head when writing this. I swear, it wouldv'e been more detailed. Im doing a lot better now, a little relapse sometimes but i swear its not that deep anymore (haha get it? pls dont hate me for that)

Okay that was awkward and depressing, now lets get to know who Richey Edwards is!!!

Why do i love Richey?

I think the intro pretty much summed it up. But if you skipped it bc of the sh. Ill just sum it up even more. This time there'll be no mentions of sh :3

Basically:

> Depressed teenager with undiagnosed BPD (me) cant cope with abandonment. 

> Find a mentally unstable welsh musician.

> Start obsessing over mentioned welsh musician to cope.

> Months later, make this shrine to dedicate how much he means to me.

I also think hes rlly cute :33

image dump n the rest is just me going batshit insane over Richey lol

           WHYYYYyyy 

 this is such a funny photo for some reason

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