Getting high for the first time || blog + vent

4/2/23

1:57

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Around 7pm, one of our irls came over to have a study sesh and ngl it was rlly fun !! I'm happy to have them as a friend and they were the one who let me hit their pen to get high so shit !! 

Getting high felt rlly fun ngl, feels like im in a fever dream but not ?? It made me feel relaxe and and a lot of our psychotic symptoms went away actually also. This isn't gonna be the final time I try out getting high, 

Vent

The only thing is that now I feel rlly guilty about it, my sister knows I got high because I told her just incase of anything and UGHHH I don't know how to explain it. I just feel like shit right afterwards and i feel so guilty for smoking ??? I barely can sleep right now too and I'm so fucking tired (and hungry) RAAAHHH idk what to do now ugh.