4/2/2023 1:40 am

College is so tiring.  I have no friends in person . No one to hang out with to get lunch  to joke around or tell about my day. All my friends are hours away and the one thats only 30 min away i feel like hates me. My own roommate doent even talk to me . I've been thinking of a final I have and it's to donate blood and I was thinking ab texting the gc to see if anyone would Want to go donate with me but it feels useless because I'd only want one of My friends to go with me. I'm so jealous seeing everyone around me going out with friends . IM SO FUCKING TIRED  I cry everyday p much and idk I want it to be summer but j feel like that will jjsg be even more depressing haha haven't seen my gf in a few months haven't kissed close to a year and our 2 year Anna is coming up. Don't think I can even see her then we said we would call but tbh I think I'd just be really depressed if we did. These are probably just my late night fucked up thoughts but I'm really just a pile of shit dude. I fail as a kid I fail as a student I fail as a friend I fail as a partner lol I fail ad a person can't make any friends venting on a MySpace ripoff where no one will read this lol

What I did today

Cryx3

Play botw

Play splatoon

Play val call gf

Tried to do hw n cried

Disappointed my mom

Missed my dad

I need a life I have no purpose 

- Goodnight mac