April Fools (by the scary jokes)

Happy April Fools!

Today I'm streaming the scary jokes second album "April Fools" because today is..

well

April Fools.

Its very fitting!

Other than that, its an AMAZING album full of absolutely memorable songs! Practically one of my favorites of all time! I really adore this album with my whole heart, and if it were a food, I would eat it several times until I throw up. :-)

My Top 3 from the album have to be "Feelin' So Matryoshka," "Blood From the Concrete," and "Toynbee Tiles."

"Feelin' So Matryoshka" has to be my top favorite of all time. I actually think this was the first song I heard from the scary jokes. I genuinely cannot get sick of it. As of right now, it has 103 scrobbles, beating my top song on last.fm. Unfortunately, I didn't have last.fm for the whole year so I dont know if I surpassed my actual top song from last year (probably not yet). I'm not really sure how I like it so much. Maybe it's the worm in my head controlling my love for music that makes me so incapable of explaining in detail Why I like the things I do.

"Blood From the Concrete" has to be my top 4th or 3rd song. I have the whole thing memorized now due to how much I've listened to it. And I haven't heard of it until a few days ago. In a way I sort of relate to it but at the same time, there's more songs that are *like me* out there, and "Blood From the Concrete" doesn't seem to be one of them. Other than that, maybe I can relate it to an oc of mine someday.

"Toynbee Tiles" is also probably top 4th or 3rd. Its fighting for its place right now! I like when the switch happens at 2:54 which adds more instruments. It also has my favorite pre-chorus lyrics. I also knew this song longer than "Blood From the Concrete", but not longer than "Feelin So Matryoshka." I personally relate to this song the most, because of the lyrics:

"I never thought it would be so tough

Just to exist through the most simplest, menial stuff"

Quite literally me!

Its hard to even exist due to my depression. No matter how many people I become friends with, I feel worse about trying to engage in conversations with them and do Normal People Things (function). My depression hinders all those functions, and stops me from trying at all (at times). Life is full of highs and lows, and right now I seem to be heading down. But I've existed for so long! So I know I always wont feel like this, even though its hard trying to think about that when you aren't feeling enough to even care. But, it does get better! I promise!!