Fuck Teenage Years

Hey I’m with my friends right now but they’ve all gone to sleep and I’m lonely 😕 but that’s how every sleepover ends right? Being left all alone at someone else’s house and having nothing to do but sit on fucking spacehey, realising that life isn’t quite what you thought it’d be. Not having friends that would die for you, or cutting loose at night and smoking weed or drinking or whatever and instead you spend your teen years sitting in your room listening to your fucking emo music and having mental breakdowns more and more often. Not being able to be in a stable relationship bc you don’t know how to show emotion and people break up with you bc you’re ‘confusing’ to be around and all you can do is sit there and agree bc you don’t even have a fucking clue about what’s going on. I don’t know how people grow up and have a family and pay bills and a mortgage and get a proper job and pay tax and do all that shit when I can barley get through secondary school like wtf life is so complicated and stupid animals don’t have all these stupid standards to live up to like humans do and I’m so done with it all, I’m actually so done.