Race day

Today is the first Weekend of races and im super pumped. I really hope these kids listen so i can enjoy myself just a little bit. Its been such a struggle with them listening and doing what i say.

We got our family photos done today. I like them, a little sad that the bluebonnets are not bloomed all the way yet. But that is okay we can always go back and try again. I am happy with the ones i did get tho, So ill just probably leave it at that. 

Next week we leave for the beach so that will be super exciting. I really need this vacation. It cant come soon enough. With eveything that happend the last almost 2 years has put me over the edge. So this break is so needed.

I turn 30 on tuesday. I still cant believe it. I dont know where time has gona but it has flew. I want to say i am excited for what 30 brings but i am not to sure about that with how the world is going. My life itself is pretty great, But the world is going to shit so fast and I just dont know where we will be by this time next year. What a scary ass thought. 

So many things to get away from and i swear there isnt enough time ever to be able to fully get away from all of that and fully reset yourself. But we will see if friday through sunday on the beach will cure something for me. I sure hope so. I need to be one again cause i dont feel whole i feel like something is missing and i cant for the life of me figure it out. i have been thinking about that for such a long time and i just cant put my finger on it. I am hoping that i find that wonderment that i am having on these vacations i am planning. Maybe i am changing again and i havent fully realized it. I mean i am about to be 30. I am still eternally struggling with that battle so i am hoping that comes to a close here really soon. 

I have a couple of more super cool places i would like to go hike in texas before we go to zion in septemeber. I really want to try and get some more time in behind the camera so i can keep learning for zion. There is apprently 145 trails at zion so it looks like i might just have to take a month or 2 long vacation in utah sometime so i can get to all of the trails. I love the beauty that nature gives you on a hike. Its truly breathtaking and it sucks they are taking so much land and all that beauty away to build zero lots ran by HOAS everywhere. Its so sad to watch 

I guess i am done talking for now. I am really just trying to kill time before we have to leave for the track. I am so stoked and so glad the weather was generous to lay off with the rain and shit so we can fucking race opening weekend! 

- PattyCakes