add and adhd

Ive been struggling the past couple of weeks with my add and adhd. No matter what i do it just seems like it is taking over my entire brain. I cant focus i really have no want to do anything even if i do enjoy it. I just dont know what elese to do. I know for a fact i will not ever be medicated again. That was the worst thing i had ever happen to me and im still facing the concequences of all of the medicine that they over dosed me on in the system growing up. I have found some things help better than others. I am wondering if it is because i have so much on my plate. I am doing alot for my store at the moment. Of course i still have my home life that doesnt stop either. Kids in school and doing every event known to man because there father said he doesnt care that much. Cool I will just keep doing it all. I feel like all I did was ramble on about absolutely nothing in this. SO if you read it cool. thanks. IF not oh well At least i finally have a place to put my feelings at.