Feeling Discouraged: The Music Industry Is Full of Love Bombing

Right now I feel discouraged about my dreams.i feel really alone. I work on my music every day and it feels like no one notices or cares. But hey that's a part of the industry that I hate. After receiving a lot of attention and after people being nice to you, they treat you like you're no one. I get why people settle for doing jobs they hate. It's easier to be boring than it is to constantly try to find new ways to be entertaining. It's easier to have stability than it is to be loved one minute and then a nobody the next. It's not just like that for "nobody's" either; it's like that for A-Listers too. This is why I've settled for putting my dream of fame in the trash. At this point I'm making music for myself, my book, and whatever higher power has inspired me to create this music. I'm documenting the process because I don't know what else to do.

One of my biggest fears is that I will die without making a positive change in the world so I am using every platform I can to stand against bullying and racism, and I am using every moment I can to make music and share uplifting energy.

I grew up with addict parents and it's a painful thought, but ending the cycles of abuse is a lot more important than achieving world fame like I dreamt of as a sad little kid. To be honest, I only dreamt that because I thought it would solve my problems. Now I know it only comes with different problems. There's no out-running your karma in this life. You can have millions of dollars and you'll still have problems. So my goal is to be kind to everyone I know and make a few really good memories before I disappear.

It's important not to tie my self worth to how much attention I'm getting or to how seriously people take me. 

I was recently underestimated for whatever reasons. I can't let that get me down. Making music isn't about how many people know your name or how many people want to collaborate with you. It's about making quality work and staying true to yourself, at least to me. I know what my morals are and I am not willing to sacrifice my soul for fame, unlike some people. It's just not worth it. So I will take this shadow period with grace and keep it moving and keep making art.