MARCH/29/2023

March 29th 2023 7:50 AM

Lyric: You don't need poltergeists for sidekicks

Mood: happy but also stressed 

Survived my ten hour day :') but I still gotta get through today. Woof. I'm soooo stressed about registration aaahhhhhh

I don't understand people who are assholes for no reason or who just a kick out of making someone else feel shit. Man, what's the point? It's so easy to just not be a piece of shit, you know?

Anyway sometimes I think about all the things I almost became. Like yeah comics are my obsession and they mean everything to me and I have to try going to school for what I'm most passionate about first. I just have to try. But...an incomplete list of things I almost became and why I didn't:

-A doctor. I'd just be a little...too into it. I think I'd weird ppl out. Might still go to medical school someday.

-An equestrian. Yeah that was before the wheelchair. (Also money lol)

-A computer programmer. Family business, I'm good at it, I'll probably still end up doing it, but it's not exactly my passion, yada yada.

-A writer. I actually am gonna do this (my minor is creative writing) but it's just not my main thing. I'm starting to feel like maybe...it should be my main thing...Idk I've still got time...I think. 

These weren't like...weird pipe dreams like when my dad and I became lobstermen and almost got arrested bc we didn't have a license (story for another time lmao). These were actual things I was doing and on the pathway to but I ultimately decided to pursue my biggest passion (art) instead. But sometimes I feel like I made the wrong choice. I have an actual...like...talent with writing. I don't know if I do with art. I try so hard but...Idk. It's whatever.

It's weird to think about being a college student. Not just a college student, but a rising sophomore! Holy fuck! That means I'm almost in my second year!!!! Fucking insane!!!!! If you asked me last year where I'd be in a year I'd say "I wouldn't." Genuinely cannot believe I actually made it to college and I'm here and I'm...a college student! Every time I feel like I just...cannot fucking do it like I just can't, I remember I'M A COLLEGE STUDENT and it gives me enough of a burst of excitement to get through whatever's stopping me in the moment.

Anyway to do list for today:

8-9: Write fan fiction

9-10: Shower + dress

10-11: Finish getting ready and get to class

10-12: Class

12:30-1: Hopefully leave class early so I can get to registration

1-3: Registration

3-4:30: Lock change bc my suite mate lost their key :/

4:30-6:30: Homework

6:30-7: Meet with RA

7-onward: Chill

Song: Just A Girl by Florence + the Machine