Rants to Convince Myself to Pick Up Hobbies

Slow day today, lectures were super short and we even played a quiz afterwards, it was mostly mind games. We're gonna learn about the travelling salesman problem soon, and that involves some math, how fun. It's not that I don't enjoy math, but anything related with additional math gives me a headache, economic maths is fine though. 

Tomorrow I'm visiting church after class tomorrow to light an Easter candle, I don't get what's the purpose of it but I don't really have a choice. Church has always been a weird thing for me, I was loosely raised with it and don't approve with some of its teachings, I'm critical of it even, but any religion exists with the purpose of being a pillar of certainty for its followers, and if it teaches good morals then who am I to oppose? Some are just more fucked up and are cult-like, people will always cherry pick what they like to hear and some just teach ignorance and hate. Anything to do with humans is just weird. I believe that you can follow any religion you want, just don't shove it down other peoples throats and be understanding.

I tried strength training with some weights yesterday, my legs hurt but in a nice way? My arms don't hurt that much though. I've tried cardio/HIIT before but it really hurt my torso for some reason, so I'm giving weights a shot. I wouldn't say I'm past my prime, I've got decades ahead of me and prime doesn't exist, but my health is definitely a far cry from what it was when I still did Taekwondo. That's alright though, improvement is always possible and I'll slowly become a better version of myself.

After that I immediately crashed in bed and had the strangest dream, it wasn't a nightmare like most of my dreams per se, but dreaming about being in a boot camp with strange people and doing mundane shit like mopping is a tad weird. I even slept through my alarm. Coincidentally I didn't fall asleep with music on so maybe that's a contributing fact. About A Girl by The Academy Is... has been stuck in my head for a while now, not a fan of the rest of their discography though.

I first heard of the song on my sister's playlist, and forgot to ask the title so I just searched based on the chorus. Along with this song I also tried it with another song I heard in her car, but had no luck with searching and forgot to ask her directly. Turns out it's from her boyfriends band Past-Times and Tragedies, I have a copy of their album on CD, maybe I'll rip and upload it on Youtube someday. It's very 2010s pop-punk and a bit cheesy but I like it.

I found a super cute dress the other day but immediately after I found out that it's been discontinued and is super hard to find. Absolutely bummed about that since I don't really wear dresses and the one dress I found that I would actually wear isn't available anymore. It's a black A-line button down dress with faint white horizontal stripes, it's sort of like a waitress dress but would look so cute with some thigh highs, boots and a jacket. Let's see if I have any luck finding something similar, or I'll make it myself, I've been wanting to take up sewing for a while now and making your own clothes that perfectly fit you sounds nice. 

Are sewing machines right-hand oriented? If so that's gonna be a bit of a problem, I can't even use most scissors properly. At least I can brag about being able to use chopsticks and can openers. Me and my friends talked about using chopsticks today, how we learned it and such. Turns out crossing your chopsticks is a universal no-no, same with sticking it upright in food, since the latter means that you're offering the food for the dead. I've always been mocked for not being able to hold chopsticks properly, and it's not even my fault since no one in my family was a lefty that could teach, so one day I just broke and learned it the good ol' way through Youtube. 

On potential hobbies, I've been writing down some scraps of words and phrases that might be useful in writing and poetry, so more like getting back into an old hobby instead. I scrolled through some of my old poems and kind of miss the feeling of writing it, whether for a situation, for someone I appreciate or for myself. Some are a bit cringe though. I write the phrases down whenever I think of it or am inspired by what someone said, mostly in a text doc or on my notes app. I wanna write them down in a notebook someday. 

That's all for now, I gonna keep up the exercising streak and take baby steps to better myself. See ya

29 March 2023