nonsober rambling

i like having this space to vent opening knowing someone could see helps but knowing most wont see is even better. its like a lil diary but only people idk and dont necessary care abt can read, maybe u can relate to me, maybe u can help me, or shame me idc. the validation that someone can hear and see the suffering comforts me. misery needs company or some bs like that, right? i want to be seen but not by people that care abt me or people i care abt cause they’ll try to help. i just want someone, anyone to know that im in pain even if im just typing to the void.