School is such a waste

Hey guys! I'm new to blogging so I'm just using this as my own personal diary for now :)

 I'm currently a freshman in high school (9th grade) and I'm already hating it & ik it's only gonna get harder & more difficult :/ ! I like 2 believe that I'm a smart person but all of these standardized tests r starting 2 make me feel otherwise (my test taking skills r so trash D; ). I've seen videos on how messed up the education system is in the U.S. & I think those videos r correct about so many things! I agree that standardized testing is a complete waste & shouldn't be used. Everybody's brain works differently & I feel that the education system in the states (my school especially) is basically focusing the teaching curriculum on how 2 pass a test! I've heard things abt a bill being passed 2 ban standardized testing (granted, I didn't look much into it), but after seeing all these things abt how bad the education system in my country is, I'm starting 2 find school 2 be waste of my time. I don't rlly enjoy it at all. It feels like I have the same convo every day with the few friends that I have. The only real friend that I have imo is my bf & we rarely see each other irl since he goes 2 a diff school. The work is vv hard since most of my classes r honors (my mom would call me stupid when I didn't have honors), & my grades r still bad. All my parents seem 2 care abt r grades. I get my chores done, I keep my room clean, I take good care of my pets, I don't ask for much material things, but God forbid I have a grade lower than a B. It's honestly very stressful... I wish my parents would quit acting like grades mean everything in my life. I know that they matter 2 a certain extent but it's hard 2 want 2 care about my grades when it feels like I'm wasting 8 hours of my life every day!!! I have considered homeschool, however I've vented 2 my bf abt this alr & he's fs coming to my school next school year :D Hopefully that will make things a lot easier for me since he'll b there 2 b my motivation lolllll 

This kinda turned into a lil vent im srry (; i don't expect many people to see this im honestly js doing this for fun lolzies