27th of march

i worked on my portfolio today after crying at work and figuring that job isnt good for me. 

my coworkers are nice and the customers are nice enough, i dont mind stocking the shelves, but i just cant do the social exchange. i cant be loud enough, or say the right words, or speak slow enough, or remember to smile. god forbid the computer fucks up and im on the verge of tears. 

anyway, point is, i cant work there anymore. i'll have to find something else that doesnt crush me. something that hopefully works along side my autism and lack of social skills.

i have my portfolio planned out and i know what to draw and where to place it, i just need to sit down and do it. then write the cv and application and hope any studio has space and time to take me in under their wing. just gotta keep going, it'll happen.

i drew some silly doodles today

and heres the drawing i worked on for my portfolio today c':its entirely pencil btw