Expressing me?

I don't feel well, I don't know how to express myself, it's hard for me to know what I feel 

Usually when I say something it's not even half of what I think, I think a lot, say little 

I've reached a point where I'm getting upset...Why are people like this?

How do I know if they really like me? I feel excluded by people

I wanted people to like me more, to include me, to talk to me more, to understand me

I'm thinking about many things, I made a list of plans that I need to fulfill in my life

I feel bad