My life rn

Idk what I'm doing tbh... Life kinda sucks. My friend is having problems and shit, the usual. He said I was too nice. Like, bitch, my parents force me to be nice to them even when I'm not feeling it at all and then THEY raise their voice at me when I raise my volume just a tiny tiny bit or there's slight irritation in my voice like I have to sugarcoat it. Why can't I be a grumpy little child bro, like my therapist said it was ok to feel feelings yk but not taking out on other people and I DON'T DO THAT. I'm not tryna say that I don't listen to him, like, ilysm bro I could listen to you all day and night 24/7 to your problems. <33 I have your back if anything happens.

Moving on,

Im doing homework but like, why do I have to do it? I'm not gunna be a biologist lmao. 

Anyways, I wonder if anyone likes me bro, I'm scared lolol. What if it's someone I don't like or smth? Like, if I reject them, I'll feel bad too HAHA.

I feel ok. I think. I hope. I worry too much, I stress too much and school is like "oh that's bad but you have 100 assignments due tmmr and I know you didn't do it lolol" like wtf?? Did you know that stressing too much = anxiety? heheheheheh

On the weekends, I think I overdid it.. I'm tired. being extroverted when hanging out with friends takes too much of my energy and it's part of why I'm tired at home and not wanting to do my homework when I come back from home. I end up copying my friends energy subconsciously. idk if you do it or not idk. I'm pretty sure you do too because let's say my friend is energetic and even if I'm tired I try to exert the same energy. Life is hard. 

sorry if this blog is long to read.

oh well, I hope you had fun reading this ig. Take care of yourself, I know I'm trying.

- V 27.3.23