Something I wrote about my ex gf

We were in love. I loved you and you love me. I don’t know what happened. All the feelings I felt for you are just gone. They disappeared. I don’t know what happened. You were so important to me and you still are, but everything I felt towards you is gone. It makes me sick thinking about how I went from loving you to not in a day. It feels like my heart was free, but has now been captured and chained up once again. I feel like deep down, I never truly loved you, but I convinced myself I did because I was so touch starved, so desperate for love that I imagined us together until I convinced myself I liked you. I feel like a horrible, malicious, manipulative bitch. I don’t know what happened