Fucking trauma

Tw! Gr00ming, family trauma, sh mentions! Read at your own risk

I fucking hate my sister. The fucking bitch groomed me and then tried to act like it never happened. Fuck you. I hope you rot in hell for what you did. I can’t trust anyone because of you. No matter how many times I scrub at my skin, I can still feel your fucking hands on me. No matter how many times I look at myself, at my body, I feel disgusted knowing your hands have touched it. I feel disgusted with myself for not being able to stop it. And the fact it happened multiple times. You were 19. I was fucking 5. I was a fucking kid. Everyone scares me now. I don’t know who to believe or who to trust. I can still see and feel it as if it happened yesterday. The way you picked me up. The way you whispered my name. The way you shoved your FUCKING TONGUE DOWN MY THROAT. YOU RUINED ME. YOU RUINED MY INNOCENCE. I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I FUCKING HATE YOU.