Stardust, Updates and Plans

I haven't been feeling well these past few days, and spent most of my days slipping in and out of sleep. I still feel horrible, all I want to do is sleep and that's doing wonders to my schedule. I'm not down with a fever or a cold, so I have not idea what's wrong with me. The gloom has made me listen to Fall Out Boy's new album So Much (for) Stardust on repeat, along with sappy telenovela music for some reason. 

The former is truly a work of art, every song is good in it's own way and feels like a warm hug from someone you haven't seen in a while. My favourite's have been Fake Out and the title track, the album in whole and these two tracks particularly paints a scene of stargazing on the beach at night, accompanied by the soft crashing of waves and warm sand underneath, with someone you've long to see and they just came back, lying down and gazing up at the starlit skies, thinking about the ever expanding world above you and how you wouldn't want to be anywhere else in the world right now, everything just feels right and you want to savor the moment.

Maybe I'm just projecting my longing onto this album, but it truly does feel warm and full of comfort, sprinkled with stardust from days ahead and sprayed with a timeless perfume you used to know. I've been wanting to do a full review of the album on my blog but this suffices for now.

On a follow up to my previous post, I visited the Ramadan bazaar last Friday! Most stalls were still there and I got to eat the murtabak, there was a long line but it was worth it. There were chicken or beef options and I stuck with the beef murtabak, it's just been my go-to. The bazaar will be here for around a month so we'll see if I have any other chances to visit, I've been wanting to try a roti john and nasi kerabu for a while now.

For my own college's Ramadan bazaar, there were only a few stalls, with two stalls being extremely popular; a roti john/shawarma stall and a milk tea/coffee stall. I didn't buy anything on my visit, maybe next time when I stay late on campus. I left campus with a bit of a bitter taste on my mouth that day, since there were some unpleasant comments made about me, I try not to think about it that much, my sickness and music have done a great job in distracting.

Today I visited my grandpa's grave to do some cleaning and offering, since it's Qingming, and you can do it ten days before/after the date based on your schedule. We decided to do it early, and a lot of people had the same idea too since the cemetery was crowded. Visit was short since we only had to attend to one grave, on All Souls' Day later this year we have to visit a ton of graves, all in one cemetery.

I'll be discussing my group assignment project next Tuesday, and I hope it all goes well. I'm always the assumed group leader and it gets on my nerves a bit sometimes, people trust me too much to know what I'm doing and I'm afraid of dragging everyone down with me if I slip up. It's the last one this semester so I hope it'll be done soon enough. Don't even get me started on my individual ones, I haven't even drafted most of them. Maybe I'll cha cha my way out of it, this song is one of my personal favourite's from Eurovision this year, I don't know if it will win but I hope so. Maybe I'll do a Eurovision rant later.

Next weekend is a bit exciting, since on Sunday I will be able to spend the day all by myself, and I plan to visit an art market and record store. After that it's walking around town and hopefully catch a movie, I haven't decided whether to watch John Wick 4 or Dungeons and Dragons, we'll see. There's some thrift shops at the market too, so maybe I'll find something to finally add some personality to my wardrobe. 

If it all goes to plan it'll be my first time just wandering around the city with no restriction, and that's an absolutely exciting thing for me. I can go wherever I want, do whatever I want and just forget about everything even for a few hours. I don't have a car but I'd rather walk anyways. The city is walkable enough thankfully.

I think that's all for now, I'm tired and just wanted to write an entry, like a journal I guess. It helps to write it down or I'll forget about it. I want to try to remember my life more, so this helps. See ya

26 March 2023