My Life

PSA this is a story that talks about substances and sexual activities so if you are not supposed to be reading this then move along...........

      So this one time I was with my boyfriend.... We'll just call him asshole, and we were also with our friend..... We'll call him cool dude. So It's late at night because we were doing something that was keeping us awake for long periods of time and making us wanna do extremely dangerous things because it made our blood pump and at the time we were young and dumb and that's all we really cared about. Well we had already had an amazing night, we went to the golf course and got some golf balls off of the field, we collected them so we could go hit them later on in the night, then I learned how to roll a joint and Oh My Lanta was it a glorious feeling to be able to not have to rely on someone else to roll your joint every time you wanna smoke one. It brought me so much joy that I had forgotten that I found out asshole had just cheated on me a few days earlier. Yes unfortunately it took me many years before I learned my worth and learned that once someone disrespects you in such a way there's no way of ever looking at them the same way again. It's really not fair to either of you after that.

      That's why I know to my core I should have ran from him a long time ago..... But back to the story at hand, after the excitement I told everyone I wanted to go to the beach. Asshole drove us and it was the scariest ride ever. He really shouldn't have been driving, he almost drove us off the cliff. Once we got to the beach we all tried to cross to the other side of the beach before the wave came out but I wasn't fast enough and I got wiped out to sea, it took me so fast that I had no time to fell fear, I just knew it was happening, I was going into the ocean. Then out of nowhere I feel hands on my foot and hands on my hand and I was no longer going into the ocean, I felt like a rope that's tied to two massive tree trunks, so safe.

      We all went back to cool dude's truck and found an ocean front restaurant that had a bathroom outside for customers to use and we noticed it was unlocked. Thank the Lord it was, because it was freezing and they had a dryer in the bathroom so we wouldn't be wet anymore. I went first, and went back to the truck, cool dude was drying off with a towel in the truck and changing into some clothes he had in the truck. Asshole was now on his way to dry off and when cool dude took his shirt off to change into something dry....... I couldn't control myself.

      All of the emotions of being cheated on, almost dying, realizing I might be battling addiction, not understanding any of it and only being 18, I didn't know what to do so I did a thing to make myself feel more alive and ready to do something wild and I started making out with cool dude, then one thing lead to another and we were both naked in the BACKSEAT of his truck while asshole is drying off in the bathroom. one thing I failed to mention earlier was the person asshole cheated on me with was cool guys girlfriend. So this was all too sweet for me to really wrap my head around at the moment in time. Then asshole came out of the bathroom and started walking up the hill to get to the truck, so we put our clothes on and acted like nothing happened. I am 29 now, this was a long time ago, and I am still friends with cool dude. Asshole on the other hand can just keep ruining his life cause that's all he's ever going to be good at. I'm still so bitter towards him for all the things that went down between us and I don't even wanna get started on how bitter I am towards myself at how long I let myself go through that.

      Though now I have the experience and story to share with you on here. So yeah, thanks for coming to this episode of my life, with me Kelsie..... Where I come on here and share with you some sort of crazy story that's occured in my life for your amusement or just to take up some time while your're waiting at the doctors office or what ever you're doing with your life. Anyways, I hope you have a wonderful day or night, stay safe and be kind.