Going back to school as a Adult 😰

I remember back in the day that week before the first day of school. Extra happy to have new thing to show off to friends and being in with the latest fashion movements. Like we all did the emo thing right, even if just alittle. Any how that excitement was the best feeling new clothes, shoes, backpack , jewelry, teachers and showing off. Seeing all those friends you didn't see over summer. Making new plans to go over someones house and sleepovers so much excitment. Like the school was are life some school work but alot of fun. As a adult im always so terrified to go to school again. I am in the medical field and I'm always going back to school. But it does not feel the same like that first day of school every year when we where kids. Not sure if it's just me but I get lots of anxiety. Adults are worst then kids especially the ones that never grew up or out of being a bully or a bad influence. Or the ones that are just super over aggressive, mean and not friendly at all to others. Like wow you guys grew to be great people..... or not. I feel like im a people person in some ways. I recently just finish school and that classroom was "NOT IT" We had those adults I mentioned earlier "Yeah". But they where older then me. Then we had the young adults, Ohhh dont get me started. So clicky and feel like a competition looking at us older folks like "Aren't you to old to be in this class". Wow these young one's are judging so hard just by looks "lol". But older folks judging by how they feel you should be and how accomplished they feel in life and experience to have the need to see if your in the same spot in life. If not they have all the advice on how you should be when no one asked. Like such a judemental class just by looks then when they spoke....😬 I was very quiet and tried to stick to myself but that doesn't always work. They wanna know "Why you so quiet". Needless to say I was happy to end that class and never see those folks again. Oh not to mention the amount of work nothing like school back then the expectation will have you stressed the heck out. I would study so hard getting test anxiety. Then being called out to answer or read something. I couldnt hide she always picked me lol. Well it felt that way but at least I knew the answers and read well. Soon I'll go back again just taking some time and working before I get all stressed again over school and people. I wonder does anyone else feel like this being a adult and going back to school?