mind

i really don't think that all of this stuff can be real honestly but i also think who am i to question anything it's not like it'd go anywhere if i tried but then i think well what if i were to figure something out that nobody else knew but then if that were to happen it's likely that no one would believe me anyway so in the end i just know nothing and can't find anything out without the crippling fear of doing something not to mention i probably can't even do anything because of the severe amount of unmotivation i have currently.