I'm unable to sleep and cried an hour ago as a result of feeling existential, so I'm kinda just laying in bed and petting my cat until...

a) I get tired of actually trying to sleep.

b) She meows for me to let her out of my room.

c) I actually fucking fall asleep.

On a more positive note, my partner (23nb; they/he) came by for a few days and was a huge help with helping me stay sane and focused throughout my day. I'm missing them a whole lot, but I know both they and I are gonna be alright; as they are working this afternoon, and I'm... focusing on my hospital worksheets and acquiring a better understanding on what the hell I'm supposed to do in life. /lh

As a note for future reference: I'm finding myself using the STOPP technique often when I overthink or have a delusional thought... and even though I have ADHD and cannot follow through with the technique sometimes... it's still nice to remind yourself that

• stopping
• taking a step back from the situation
  
• observing yourself and the feelings – mindfully, and
  
• getting perspective
  

is crucial to ensure secure attachments and establish a supportive network/foundation for yourself.