Try dying

Did you love them enough? Kiss them enough? Hold them enough? In that sad dark room, did you cry enough? Even if they couldn't hear you, you should have said more. What was it like to hear someone's last words? To sing for them for the last time? Why don't you feel the weight enough? 

Y'know, it's probably time you move on. But don't stop thinking of them or crying for them or wishing for one last hug or dreaming of them. I mean, it wouldn't be fair to stop wanting them back. I don't really know what it's like but it can't be that hard to get over it. 307 days should be more then enough! Do you really need them that bad? You're a big kid, you can take it.

You can take it, can't you? I know you cried for hours after the wake. I know you can't handle passing the hospital. I know you cry everytime you dream of them. I know the only thing you want is to feel their warmth again. I know the jealousy you feel seeing somebody take for granted what you don't have. I know that everything that happened permanently altered your life, but it's not that big of a deal. A kid like you is strong enough to suck it up. So suck it the fuck up.