i love my boyfriend

no one can compare to him. he is everything ive ever wanted.

like a dog for his owner, ive been waiting to meet this boy

i love his hair and his voice and his face and his bottom lip

but most of all

i like the words he says, the stringing together of emotions and opinions into a beautiful bracelet

i like his timidness

i like that he listens to what i say

i like the way his fingers sound when they tap against his keyboard

i like his complex mind

i like figuring him out, a puzzle all to myself

i like the way he makes me feel, like i can do everything but i dont have to anything at the same time

i like the way he likes me

i sometimes act like im asleep on the phone just so it goes silent and all i can hear is the hum of the air in his room and his breathing in intervals

i like the way he makes my heart pound

i am scared to lose my best friend, him

i am scared to lose him, my best friend

i was scared that night when we went to see a movie and i had my legs across his lap with my arms wrapped around his shoulders like a child. my heart stopped beating. my breathing was sharp and hurt. my chest tightened. i felt like i was going to puke. if i threw up, he'd think i hate him. isnt this what happens in south park with stan and wendy? thats funny. he looks at me. i reach my hand to bring his face up to mine and i kiss him. every fear i had disappears at once. i feel.. good? an unknown feeling

he makes me feel things i have never felt before. i just wish i could get everything i think about him out

i love him. i love him. i love him. i love him. i love him. i love him. i love him. i love him. i love us.