2020

The year I completely disappeared from myself. I no longer feel like I'm I my body most of the time . It's such a strange and hard to explain feeling of non existence, paired by the overwhelming pressure of trying to hold together my family- or what I have left of one. The weigh of it mentally and spiritually is something I can only describe as crushing.
Another brother taken away from me way too
soon. An image of complete devastation burned into my mind and soul, probably until the day I die. I pray I'm wrong.
The two extreme feelings of complete nothingness or total panic and heartbreak have been battling eachother since my world was turned upside down for the second time.
I hope I find myself again soon.