Hate Fiction

Long story short, I was once a fan of a show that I no longer want anything to do with because of a negative (and honestly quite traumatizing) fan experience.

But before that ended, I started a NaNoWriMo project, which happened to be a fanfiction of that show which I now hate. So now, I'm stuck with it because I can't just drop the project I wasted a whole year on. And it's actually a really good plot. My plot, not the show itself.

The show is Hetalia, by the way.

It's kind of embarrassing, you know. Often, when I'm meeting someone for the first time, they ask about my hobbies and I say writing, they ask me what I'm writing. I'm backed into a corner and have to explain that it's a fanfiction. Of a show with a reputation for having the worst fans in history (besides the Bible, but I'm a fan of both). Not that any normal person has even heard of Hetalia, but I'm screwed if they look it up.

The good news is that the target audience was never other fans. The target audience was myself. I didn't use popular characters that everyone loves. I chose the ones that I loved. I also constructed my own plot and setting, contrary to the original concept, and gave everyone a lot more depth.

Overall, I'm happy with it and don't want to change the characters even though I easily could. I'm too emotionally attached to some of them to let them go. Plus, it's like a middle finger to the fandom.

But yeah, today I was working really hard on it and then remembered this random fact and it made me cry.