Holy shit the overwhelming feeling of loneliness.

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I'm currently not doing well at all. It's been increasingly obvious the fact that I'm completely and utterly alone in this world. I recently had a falling out with someone who I held to very high regard and now my entire life has been flipped upside down. She was everything to me. Now the only thing that's on my mind is the fact that my closest friends that aren't online are a 15 year old with bpd, a ****** 18 year old metalhead and another one that's slightly less *******. I just can't believe this is my life now. I'm trapped in this hell. I don't deserve this. I'm so sorry ******. I'm not typing her name out it hurts me to see it. I miss her so fucking much it's unreal.

I was going to write something about this artistically but I'm too upset about this to even put it into words.

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