MARCH/14/2023

March 14th 2023 10:02 AM

Lyric: Eat me up like Hannibal Lecter

Mood: happy 

NO CLASS TODAY!!!!! This is my day where I have two five hour classes in a row and they're both cancelled!! AAAHHHHH

Will and I have been watching House MD <333 I love that dumb little show. Funniest thing is it aired after Will was born and before I was lol it's older than me but younger than him (he's only about three months older than me)

(Tw for needles + medical stuff starts now)

We're on the DNR episode and yeah...I don't remember much of this ep but this is an interesting show to watch with medical trauma lmao gods can you imagine telling a 16 year old girl that she should get a DNR bc her "quality of life" isn't worth saving... .-. COVID was wild. (That's not my actual medical trauma but I kinda don't feel like getting into that rn lol)

Will has medical anxiety and I didn't really realize that before we started watching so I was like ummmm?? We should NOT watch this show. This is a TERRIBLE show you to watch if you have health anxiety. But he insisted he's fine and he wants to keep watching. I hope he really is alright. He's also a little squeamish and I don't really have that. I really really like needles and the way they look going into skin... I know I'm weird I know!

(Tw for needles + medical stuff ends now)

Anyway this is gonna make me sound like an asshole but I think the internet has rotted some people's brains when it comes to social interaction... not to be a boomer but like... like phrases like trauma dumping. I'm so sick of my friends literally just telling me about how they had a hard day and then they go "omg sorry for trauma dumping!!" my dear you are NOT trauma dumping. You are literally just existing. As your friend, I should WANT to hear if you had a hard day?????? Wtf. And also for the record.....opening up to your friend, with permission and in a proper setting, is not trauma dumping either .-. babe, we are FRIENDS. I want to know if something happened to you that you feel like you'd like to share with me! Whatever. I know I sound like a boomer but I hate the internet.

Anyway there's a new RD. I feel a little sad cuz I really liked our old one but our new one seems really cool and nice as well! I'm excited to get to know her. It frustrates me because I think possibly the reason the old RD stopped working here is bc people harassed her so much over the elevator being down...and they did it on "my behalf." .-. I DIDN'T FUCKING ASK YOU TO. She had no control over the broken elevator! Harass the fucking SCHOOL not some poor RD who has no control over it! I fucking hate able bodied people so much sometimes. They're so desperate to feel like "allies" or fucking whatever that they just spend all their time talking, no screaming, over me. Fucking shut up! <3

Whatever. I hope the old RD knows I don't hate her or blame her or anything.

Anyway I feel like I can't escape New Jersey. I never knew it but House MD takes place in New Jersey. The new RD is from New Jersey. Will Wood is from New Jersey. I can't escape it. I swear New Jersey is the third layer of Dante's Inferno.

Song: Good to Be Alive by PVRIS