Me❤️

If I had to choose a day and a way to ☠️it’d be very simple for me.:)

I want to ☠️ on a Thursday, it’s my favourite day of the week. Ideally it’d be before I can reach 28 and/or 29, but I’m not stopping anything or anyone from doing it earlier. I don’t think I can see myself living past then really. Time frame wise somewhere around 6:00 6:30 just as the sun starts to set, so I can look at all the colours in the sky and see just a glimpse of the moon. Very scenic. 

I’ve always imagined either being murd3r3d or ☠️ by suicide. And holy shit the amount of bullshit I’d get from my family about wanting to ☠️ by suicide. I wouldn’t hear the end of it dead or alive. Being murd3r3d has always been a fantasy, i guess you can say, that I’ve always had. I’d want my body to be found, have tangi (funeral for all those who aren’t Māori) then be cremated and spread somewhere in forests of Aoteroa, so I can always stay connected to my land forever. 

With suicide I’m tossing up between either a gun or a noose. Idk where I’d find a gun but I’m sure I could find one. Dying by a gun has been something I’ve always imagined happening to me. Since I was 12. A grotesque way to go but I see it as an a finale way to express myself. With my brains literally splattered all over the place. Cringey I know.I hate the colour red tho so that’d be annoying. But recently I’ve been looking into hangings. Through various photos and stories both from personal and online experiences they look almost pretty. And yeah there’s that whole thing abt girls wanting to be pretty when they die. I agree with it. Knowing me I’d probably do my makeup and dress up like it’s a special occasion. It would be to me anyway. 

But yeah that’s how and when I’d like to ☠️

(Emoji is being used bcs I don’t wanna keep re writting this and posting it lol)