thoughts no. 003

hello, its been a few days. lets catch up

• i cannot WAIT to quit this fucking job. i just need to find somewhere that has good pay and good benefits. waiting until the summer to see how things play out for me
• friend and i got a vcr and a bunch of vhs tapes the other day. those shitty flintstones movie, a few actually good films, and a shitton of anime. the anime is all mine. 4 ranma tapes and a couple of ovas. we watched one of them, "riding bean". good animation, fun story. i need to find more ova tapes. i was inspired by the youtuber hazel to do this since i know she did a video where she watched and talked about a bunch of random direct to vhs anime. i was tempted to pick up the 6 or so robotech tapes that were at the same thrift store as everything else, but that series is really long from what i remember... not like ranma is any better because im pretty sure there are a shitton of those tapes i still need to collect
  
• questioning romantic identity. ah, i dont entirely believe im allo. ive always found it difficult to form crushes or even fall in love. i am most certainly attracted to men. im just not entirely sure if thats purely sexual attraction or not. identity is a very confusing thing, no? it doesnt help any when your feelings are muddled by bad past experiences. i dont mind using arospec to describe myself though. reading some of the identities people have coined... they feel very confusing to me. id rather just say "im arospec, ive fallen in love before but i rarely feel romantic attraction to others" than try to box myself into any specific label