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…until i decided to befriend myself.
extend the same amount of love and kindness to myself.
have the desire to nourish my own body as i do my friends.
it's a similar sort of revelation to when i stopped envisioning slapping myself across the face when i started feeling emotional or sad to "get over it". hit the reaction away.
i am still grieving the person who arrived at the conclusion that violence was a viable response to something as natural as a feeling.
i am still grieving the child who had to endure violence from such a young age.
but i decorate the pain with endless love. bountiful love. i decorate the grief with flowers. with hopeful compassion. instead of envisioning violence, i embody warmth. i radiate kindness. sometimes i cry with her. i cry with the tiny little cherub child. but with the strength i have now, i wipe away her tears and give her a cuddle. i hold her chin up and smile at her. smiles of reassurance. that no matter what she will always have me by her side and everything will be ok. it's going to be just fine. you are ok. i am ok. and i am sorry. i am sorry you had to go through all of this. i am sorry for how lonely you were. i am sorry you have to spend years of your life piecing yourself together instead of following a regular path. i am sorry i couldn't save you. i am sorry it's taken me this long to find you and tell you all of this. i am sorry it's been so long even though it feels like life has only just begun. i am sorry. i am here now and you are held. you are seen. you are uplifted. you are appreciated.
let those tears wash away your sorrow and allow for something magnificent to blossom. you feel so intensely. you should be proud. perhaps it is a bit different from others but you like being different so embrace it. your uniqueness lies in how you express yourself, in your essence. i am proud of you. there are moments for gladness as much as there can be sadness. you deserve to feel happiness as deeply as you feel sorrow. life can be unkind but you are a resilient flower. a little flower fairy with a bite for life. always remain kind in the face of adversity. always protect yourself and know your worth because you are worthy of an abundant life full of love. always love yourself. even on the darkest days. you might feel like a raincloud at times but remember the skies will eventually clear for you to shine bright again. always tell your friends that you love them. spread love. share love. remember even in the vastness of the cosmos light is the one thing that travels far and wide. embody the brightest star because you never know who might need a reminder of the warmth of sunshine.
stay true to yourself. i love you. you are safe.
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Jade<3
THIS OMG!!! This was so beautiful and I related so much and all I can truly say is something I learned at a young age but didn’t believe until recently, “You are Smart, You are Kind, And You are Important”…Ik it’s from the movie The Help but I used to get told that whenever I was down and I honestly think it still stands no matter what age. You are so gorgeous btw<3333
healing isn't linear and what a journey to be on! sending you lots of love and hugs. i am glad you are honouring your worth - you deserve the best and i am proud of you!! thank you so much <3 :)
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Clara
This is so heart rending, yet touching and uplifting, as if spoken to my own soul. I felt this, and relatable - although I haven't suffered violence, life has been a struggle in other ways. Amazing writing. Kudos! :)
i'm glad this resonated with you. tysm for your kind words :3 sending you lots of love and hugs on this healing journey <3 :)
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Love and hugs back at'cha! thank you <3 x
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ℜ𝔲𝔯𝔲 ♥
omg beautiful words <3
tysm :333
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Shadow Bliss
Really well put.
tysm appreciated <3 :)
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❧ 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔳𝔢𝔩𝔳𝔢𝔱 𝔡𝔬𝔭𝔢. ❧
This was poetically stunning and look @ how adorable you were as a child! 🥹💕 Such a beautiful work of expression - I needed to see this today. You truly have a gift, Beloved. 🕯️✨
aw sweet angel thank you!! sending you all of my love and big hugs <333
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pqGatito901
Beautifully put, I'm proud of you for being able to achieve that self love. That's a journey that a lot of people go through and never finish. We're rooting for you ♡ ´･ᴗ･ `♡
ty for your kind words <3 big love and hugs to you :)
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heartbeats
so proud of you 🖤🖤
tysm angel it means a lot :3
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Malko
That was so thoughtful, this type of writings among other few interesting and meaningful things that keeps coming back to Spacehey from time to time, thanks for sharing, I'm getting inspired by it :)
i'm delighted :) tysm <333
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