weight talk (positive)

i think i have a little bit of tummy now?? which is awesome! but i'm sort of wondering why i'm putting in fat now, when i have literally never been able to put on fat before this.

i'm wondering if it's because the stress in my life has tapered down and now i'm able to put on weight as like... a sign of happiness? but also i haven't actually really put on any pounds that hasn't been from muscle (i started working out again a month or so ago).

sort of hoping it isn't crohn's disease coming back to bite me. i'm not having any symptoms that i had with crohn's previously, so hopefully it's fine? my stomach sure has been protruding, though. :/

anyways, having a bear body is literally gender goals for me, so even though this is new and kind of daunting for my body to finally change like this, i'm also excited about it!!