[VENT?] but not rly

I feel like i am segmented into diff flavors and each flavor loses fuckin consciousness for a long time then is like oh yea

Its not like did i dont think but i feel like im suddenly like Oh wow  its been xx days

Or oh wow its xxx and this is different

Its rly hard to explain. Like ill lose a chunk of memory??? Idk ill forget lots of stuff. Ill write it down and look back and be like what the fuck.

Idk if its stress related or what. Or the undiagnosed adhd im p sure i have or ????????

I just get woken up a lot or forget a lot and get confused a lot. Like im being passed around between 10 versions of myself dokfkwkf and we all gotta fucking figure it out while hot potatoing the mind body and mouth between each other

Went on a silly tirade and deleted it but the point is its annoying

Nothings ever connected. I can see things but it wont click until i see it again later. Things are lost rn

Cos when thigns get found it freaks me out until i put it back in the box and shove it in the closet or under the bed or wherever in my head

Then one of my dumbass selves finds it idk

Its exhausting fr

Its always volitile and tiring .

I just got alarmed by how many days ive been logging in onndaily on furvilla when like a minute ago it felt like it was like 20-30 less days and before that it was like 7.

Like picks up my phone puts it in my pocket and some how it ends up on my bed onnthe other side of the roomiiknow i put it there but how i forgot

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