MARCH/7/2023

March 7th 2023 7:51 AM

Lyric: I breathe in stereo, the stereo sounds strange

Mood: bored 

I forgot my parents go to sleep at 9pm and wake up at 9am. I don't know how they do that. I go to sleep at midnight at best and wake up at 6am every day. So I'm just kinda tip-toeing around trying not to wake them up.

It's weird being back in my old bedroom after being gone for so long. Feels a little...wrong. I talked to Will once about how when I go home it feels like...it feels like I'm in an episodic television show and no matter what I do or how hard I try to escape, I always end up right back where I started the next episode. You ever seen Don't Hug Me I'm Scared? Yeah. 

I almost feel like I can hear echoes of the past.

Anyway I miss Will a lot. He keeps texting me and I want to text back but there's just...nothing to tell him about. Nothing ever happens here. Everything is always the same. It's cute how much he misses me though <3 I miss him too sooooo muchhhhh (and it's only been like a day lol) I hope he's not too worried about me. I'm a little worried about him but he insisted he'll be fine.

Apparently my mom and I are going to a book store today so. That's cool. Maybe I'll get something to read for the break. I also have like a fucking ton of money saved so I might do something with that.

My brain says "get a piercing get a piercing get a piercing" but ah...I don't know. Yes I'm 18 but that's gonna be a whole fight with my mom and I'm so tired of fighting with her. I'd rather just have my friend do it (in my defense he used to be a piercer) and not have to deal with that whole thing.

I love taking male characters and saying they use she pronouns. If Hannibal Lecter isn't the most he/she motherfucker you ever saw, idk who is.

Song: money machine by 100 gecs