[MISC] + [VENT] obamaself partner

I just want to play rd2 online forever. I dont have anyone to play with i dont think but its ok if im by myself in this game jt doesnt make me sad like usual. I wish i can have a bigger bag i dont know if you can or not.

My cat just licked my nose 

Other than that i am kinda feeling better about not feeling loved or cared about today . Im getting my dog soon.

Im not smart and i dont know how to trust others . I dont think i can

I think im being lied to and idk what to do abt it

I dont know if it matters .

Ive gotten past everything so far whats one more injury to the soul honestly

Its been hot recently in my room i have two fans going

Sophia likes me at least

Tomorrows monday and friday is dog day

OH AND KAF FINALLY GOT HIS DOG!!!!!!!!!!! kaf finally got his dog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She looks like a cute goblin!!!!!!!! And shes a merle like he wanted really bad :3c!!!!!!! We can have doggy dates and our doggies be gal pals and play!!!! And maybe finally kaf will hang out w me

Im rly hungry but i dont wanna eat rn ;x;

Sunday was mean to me i got too mad and people were too dumb

Im struglging to get anything productive done. Ive just been sleepy and sad and upset. I wanna work on stuff but i cant do anything

Idk what to do

I cant remember anything

I like having a place to blog cos i never remember anything, especially not little things and i can look again at stuff

I always have a lot of sad posts though and i hate knowing that some other version of me was so sad and had no one be nice to me. Its always just me . No one ever says anything or cares cos i always bounce back

And i think a lot that one day i won't bounce back and i don't know if theyll care then either. Id care i like me

I dont understand why no one else does

I didnt mean to get sad but i got sad anyway

I feel like an unwanted child

My baby sister said to me sunday that she heard jamie (my mom) mutter about her that "you (my sister) ruined my (my mom) life" but jamie denied it to her. I believe she did say it because thats how she is.

Sophia is literally incredible considering what shes coming from . Shes shy and anxious i hate that but she is sweet and considerate and loves a lot of things and likes doing things. I think shes gonna be really depressed tho .

Sophia is my favorite relative easily. Shes smart and likes doing things w me and likes me.

Im kinda scared about the upcoming year. I cant do anything tho besides bitch to deaf ears.

I wish i could escape