bit of an overshare rant

this past year i've been trying really hard to get over an ex. i'm at a point now where i know the relationship would never work. im at a point where i realize how toxic it was and how much i actually dont like her. But i miss it. i don't miss her though as much as i miss the feeling. like im on top of the world. heart pounding. adrenaline pumping. i miss the high. because now im left with one friend and a tight chest. my heart just feels empty. it makes my chest hurt. i hate that im practically a loner. 

don't form a codependency kids.