sad abt måneskin

I literally want the måneskin deluxe box for RUSH! so bad but it's $230 and there is no way in hell I'm buying it. I know it sounds kind of stupid but I've been hyper-fixated on måneskin for soooooo long and it basically gave me my whole personality. I never gave up learning guitar because of Thomas, and I learned the drums because of Ethan, and I dress the way I do because of Vic, and I never quit chorus bc of Damiano. IDK if I sound spoiled or something it's just kind of upsetting. (I'm not spoiled at all tho lmao I have super annoying parents that are always like "I had it so hard growing up!!") I might be getting the vinyl with the signed insert and I'm gonna order some posters tho. I also have a close family friend I'm going to work for soon so I literally am praying it isn't taken down by the time I save up for it. anyways bye have a good day.