What the actual hell just happened (tennis)

aHhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i jsut got back from my first tennis tournament of the year and oml it honestly couldn't have gone worse.

For some insight, I'm a pretty new player. I started tennis last year and just decided to stick with it and I guess I'm already in varsity? I think I'm like the 3rd,4th, or 5th player on our team but I like to think I'm pretty decent.

Anyway, we started with a doubles match and I was doing alright but I swear to God I had to hit my serves in the mf sun so I was getting blinded as if my serves weren't crappy enough. And we weren't doing all that bad except for me just flat out doing stupid shit like the opponent made their first serve and then they announced their 2nd serve and my dumb ass though they were tryna say something so I just stood there and caught their serve like a jack ass. And ofc I got yelled at by my team mate but idk I'm just built different. And to top it all off we lost the match but my team mate had to leave early so we weren't able to finish but it was probably for the best considering how bad we were.

And don't even get me started on the singles oh my God. It started off really awkward and it only got worse. by then I had been playing for a few hours and already wanted to drop dead and I also was really embarrassed and anxious because of the last game. (I played this guy doubles and singles) But some of the highlights to my match were constantly forgetting the score, catching the ball 2 times accidentally, getting hit in the throat with the ball, and every time I threw his ball back to him I kept throwing it like 10 feet away from him so I felt really bad about that. 

But the worst part is he could tell I wasn't feeling that well and as soon as I got a call from my dad during the court switch, he over heard it and I'm pretty sure that's what made him feel rly bad for me and I noticed he was giving me points and changing the score and omfg ion know. But anyway, you can expect to read more stupid shit like this where I explain how socially awkward I am but I just really wanted to get this out I totally feel fine rn. I mean it's not like I'm ever gonna see him again... right?