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omg heyy so i met this guy and we re gonna call him email for the rest of the story. Ive never talked to him up until saturday, and i never considered him as someone i would like. One day i had just been bored and was scrolling through my dms and saw his username bc the few days before i had posted a story of my bird and he had replied with "caw caw". for some reason in that moment smth just went off in me and i was like "hey i wanna be friends w this guy" (febuary theory shit bro) So i had my friend help me talk to him, and the first day we mostly had small talk abt music and MF DOOM in particular, then we started sending reels + photos back and forth. usually it was just some racist dark humor or silly cats, and one time i sent a cat reel and decidied to say "i luv cats" and then he was like "me too" and so we just sent reels of cute cats and silly cats. Then yesterday (monday) during my 3rd period, the only period we have tg, i kept wanting to talk to him, but the thing is hes part of this little friend group and i think they mostly all hate me because the head of the group, who ill call beanie, had this friend that i dated and broke up with then he got mad bc i told everyone the horrible shit he said to me. so im like his mortal enemy now despite me not holding anything he said or did against him (i dont like holding grudges. im a forgive and forget typa person) but obviously he was still mad abt the breakup and his exposing following it. so then one day i told my friend beanie was cute as a joke bc she always judges me for my taste in men, and this other person heard, "glasses" for the rest of the story, and told my ex. he told beanie and they started making fun of me. now, email doesnt seem to share the same hateful feelings for me that the rest of their little group does, honestly he seems pretty chill, but he could just be acting like that to make fun of me by ssing the chats and showing beanie and their friends. yesterday, i went to lunch early because i have that privelage bc of my broken foot, so does my bff daniel who has the same 3rd. glasses came with us as our "escort" though we didnt need one we just wanted to mess around. i went to the bathroom to go do my lip liner and glasses came with me. i started to tell glasses about email bc me n her are friends, and she told me how he catfished her in 7th grade. they were talking, and she didnt know what he looked like till she met him irl. Now, smth abt me is that for some reaosn im always attracted to the "ugly" guys.  personally i dont think their ugly but according to literally everyone else they are. Glasses told me that email was ugly and asked if i knew what he looked like and i was like yeah no shit he sits at the table behind me. she gave me a questioning look like i was dumb. later on during lunch when everyone had came, i was talking to the friend hwo had helped me talk to email on saturday. she didnt know who he was so i showed her during lunch and she laughed and told me he looked like a jacko lantern. so did daniel. and everyone else sitting with me.  

i really like this guy, and yesterday the same friend as before was helping me talk to him and i asked her if she thinks itd be cringy if i was just straight up and told him i wanted to get to know him. she said no and messaged him on my acc saying that and he was like "uhh sure"  and since then we ve still just sent stupid vids and stuff.

any advice?


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