❀ Kinlist (and why I kin this characters)

My highest kins for people who are interested in me rambling about myself (sorry for possible mistakes :D):

• Kokichi Ouma (New Danganronpa V3: Killing Harmony)

I have always been anxious kid concerned about safety. In early teens i became a pretty mean and unhealthy person who would often lie, try to manipulate and just say things like “I don’t care about you”, because I needed to play a role of a “bad guy” to keep myself safe from other people. Kokichi’s character actually reminded me about my true wishes and something behind my fears and issues. I have always wanted to have fun WITH others and I value lives and rights of every person, I don’t want people around me dead or harmed as much as I don’t want to be controlled or betrayed, I want to find answer, solution, get my win and to do this I must fight my anxiety and be able to connect with others. 

Now Im a pretty different person, I visited therapist who actually helped me to feel more healthy. I still have a lot trust problems, lie problems and showing my emotions problems, but they are actually unseen to untrained eyes ;) 

• Ranpo Edogawa (Bungou stray dogs)

Im a curious person who can and would ask 10001 questions, sometimes just to annoy you. When I was a kid I could never understand other people, especially adults. Why they act this way? It’s seemed so stupid! But grownups suppose to know better, right? I thought that problem was in me, but then my mom tried to make me believe in myself and explained that all people are different and some of them are just stupid. It’s actually helped me to feel better, but I developed a pretty unhealthy thought that I am better and smarter than other people! I know that it can’t be an objective truth, don’t worry and I respect other people. Still I like to act a bit arrogant and to use my skills as something incredible, even though im not a genius or something (it’s a joke guys im genius!!!) 

Also i find it appealing that Ranpo works for a “good guys”, because even though my own morals are pretty low I just can’t find a good reason to use people for stupid things like world domination or something like this 

• Yae Miko (Genshin Impact)

I like to see people interact with each other, their happy moments, their angry moments and just human lives.

We both have a happy and sad memories. We miss our past, people who we cared about and loved, who we lost. But we still go forward and have fun right now! Every day is a happy one, remember. And I hope that someday I will be able to meet my old friends again.

 "I mean, a Euthymia without wind or moon, with lotuses and udumbara that do not wither," 

"I'm sorry, but the loneliness would get to me. I'd be bored to tears."

 "I'd much rather snap off Thunder Sakura branches in a drunken haze and cavort with the impudent youkai." 

"And no, these are not stories of the ancient past, but of a future full of hope."

• Shikanoin Heizou (Genshin Impact)

I find how this character think and act very relatable, but I’m afraid I wont be able to tell new information about myself after talking so much about first three kins. 

The want to solve mystery, find answer and to help if I can is important part of me. I also don’t believe in destiny. 

• Etihw (The Gray Garden) 

Just read this and you will understand:

“They had a somewhat sheltered upbringing; compared to other gods, they are more innocent and naïve on subjects like brutality and other-world negativity. They lack knowledge on many topics, and because of this, Etihw is overwhelmed when dealing with new and uncomfortable situations. Despite their usually casual attitude, Etihw is able to behave mature and serious when the situation calls for it”

Relatable, so relatable, guys. Its me 

• Gumball (The Amazing World of Gumball) 

My friend told me that this character is literally me, but exaggerated version and fortunately or unfortunately it can be true :D (omg I hate him and relate to him so much, lol) 

• Mizuki Akiyama

I always liked cute things and cloth/heir styles that some people would call “feminine”. I don’t see any problem in the way I dress or look, I just want people to look at me as me and accept me. I don’t want others to look at my gender, sexuality, race or even age and only then see me as person. I’m not telling that everybody should forget about this, no, world would become a chaos! And I’m not against sharing this information if it’s important for you to know! It’s just I want my close ones to like Me as Me more often