just cursed otherkin thingzzz (like. someone actually put a curse on me)

its been a while since i posted any kin stuff so! i might as well make a new bulletin since i wanna be using this site more

ive been really struggling with figuring out what my kintype actually is. I finally figured out why: my childhood frenemy put a curse on me to keep me from finding my true self!!1 ^_^

ok ok i know that sounds stupid as hell but hear me out: we used to be friends, but she was the kinda person who had to be the main character, but she was really fixated on me fsr? so she was, like, almost obsessed with impressing me, except her idea of impressing me was being more X thing i liked than me.

ive always had kin feelings so when i was a kid i let it pretty much consoom my whole lil self and i was super heavy on the wolf larping, honing my instincts, training like a warrior cats kid but with wolves and stuff. That was like, my big thing. i was so autistic about it that our recess group kinda just ran like a wolf pack bc it seeped into everyone else around me. Naturally, she HAD to be the cool alpha wolf with the strongest instincts and the sharpest teeth and the deepest understanding of wolves.

except that she sucked, had blunt ass teeth and was really lazy

when we got a little older she stayed obsessed but she started dabbling in magic because she wanted more ~mystical power~, which meant that she started putting curses on people. She had me help with a lot of her spells, so i know the kinda stuff she was doing, and some of it was actual magic from books.

eventually i decided i was tired of her bs and i told her to get lost... then i started losing my connection to my kintype, pretty suddenly. It was reawakened a little when i was in high school but when i wasn't constantly thinking and posting about it, it really quickly got suppressed.

I think i'm gradually finding myself, though. I did a curse removal spell, and i made a subliminal track to reinforce my sense of self, that i play in the background while i do stuff related to my kintype! I'm slowly getting myself back, but it's still taking a lot of work. i'm gonna try to post something frequently, to keep myself focused and stop the stone from gathering moss ^_^