I didn't even know I was Down

After the birth of my 3rd babygirl I experienced something different,

Something that I had never experienced before,

Emotions I never came in contact with,

When I looked in the mirror I saw a woman I did not recognize,

And how could she be me?

I was very sure of who I was and had always been...so I thought,

Ok, yea, so have a baby, yea I knew I would gain a little weight, but the way I felt about Me was way worse than some stomach fat.

I remember being angry everyday on schedule,

I remember crying everyday on schedule,

I done had this beautiful babygirl, but now everything around me and in me was crashing,

My family life, my career, my spirit...

It took months for me to get up off that floor...but I got up off that floor.

After I redeemed myself, I would think about those moments and feel ashamed, oh baby, I felt weak cause I had been "Doniaboo" for years and I could Neva!

Prior to experiencing post-partum depression, I made light of the possibility and for damn sure knew it could never be me.

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I didn't even know I was Down

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