an aromantic take on love.

i always come up with so many things to write about while just going about my day and then i get here and it's like [head empty for a wholeass minute] KJSHGSHG. 

anyway i was thinking about my relationship with romance. it's really interesting to me because whenever i've felt like. "oh okay this is a true connection to someone" i've immediately categorised that as romantic feelings. as if romance is the ultimate kind of connection? as if.... just because i thought it was the strongest feeling i could feel, that meant it had to be romantic in nature? 

like, please.

i was operating under misconceptions this whole time, and it took being with my current (also aromantic) partner to realise that. i thought that i felt romantic attraction to it because i'd never felt so goddamn in love before. but you can be platonically in love. you can kiss and cuddle and adore someone in an ultimate, platonic way. 

everything i thought i knew about love dissipated into the mist upon being with Ellis. everything. because they show me kindness, tenderness, sweetness. they show me wholehearted love, unconditional love, everlasting love. they show me patience, empathy, intelligence. no one ever will compare to them in terms of being someone i want to share my life with. no one ever has. no one ever does. 

i am so goddamn monogamous, so goddamn platonically in love, and after years of being polycules that weren't serving me i'm so glad to have my one and only. 

i love you, Ellis.